I have a feeling that for the rest of my life, Mother's Day will make me think of Katie McCarron. She has been on my mind all weekend. My heart has been heavy and my thoughts have been with Katie's grandfather, Mike, and the rest of their family.
I've also been thinking about a post I wrote last Mother's Day but never published. It has been sitting in Blogger in draft form for a year. I wrote it before I heard the news about Katie's death, but of course when I read it now, Katie is all I can think about. I'm not sure why I didn't publish it last year - it's difficult to crawl into a year-old psyche. Maybe I just felt too vulnerable.
After a year, though, the post has lost its power for me, so I'll publish it now, in memory of Katie and with loving thoughts for her family.
May 14, 2006
Peaceful Mother's Day
It's everywhere: Happy Mother's Day! Happy Mother's Day!
Maybe it's because of the miserable weather we're having (or maybe it's something else), but today I haven't been thinking much about how happy I am to be a mother. (Though I really, really am.)
Today I've been thinking about the mothers who have lost their children; I've been thinking about the children who have lost their mothers. And I've been thinking that "happy" is too much to ask of them today.
So, instead, I wish them comfort. I wish them peace.
I wish them a day when nobody tells them to have a happy mother's day.